On my dad’s side: Thomas Jefferson Shinn of Cabarrus County, NC, had to drop out of school to work the farm when his father died young. Eventually, Thomas accumulated a large amount of property and, according to the genealogy, “a number of slaves.” (I don’t know what that means. Did he own 3, 30, 300? One hesitates to delve.)
By the time you read this, at least two weeks will have passed since the massacre at Emanuel AME Church in Charleston. As I write, it’s been about 10 days, and my fingers tremble and hesitate over the keyboard.
When you’re a woman of my rapidly advancing years and particular interests, chances are you’ve ingested the thoughts of so many great minds – again and again – that those thoughts are now part of your own mind, mixing and melding into a kind of spiritual background music, the soundtrack of your solitude.
I was Facebooking with a friend the other day about a phenomenal concert we’d both seen the night before – a performance by the Clover Choraliers, an award-winning high school choir from the upstate – and she mentioned that their first number had brought her to tears.
“It brought me to tears, too,” I responded. “And I remained there.”
Recently, I was lying in bed at 3:40 am – never a great time to be awake – thinking about the column I had to write later that day. When you’ve been penning columns for 15 years, like me, you sometimes approach them with a degree of weariness. (Been there, said that, and who cares, anyway?) If you’re also approaching deadline, that weariness can be tinged with panic. Weary panic is an unpleasant sensation.
It’s still springtime, and my Adventures in Nature continue apace. I’ve come to rely on them as an antidote to all the noise and chaos out there – maybe even a permanent vaccination, though I’m still experimenting with that theory. Much testing left to do.